From the Past: 20 January 2015 Hopes, Fears, Etc.

In fall 2014 I began adjuncting after teaching high school for 17 years. I desperately needed a break. This series will examine my ramblings while I had my students write for a particular amount of time during the first year I taught composition. These will be curated.

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Wow! I can’t believe that I forgot to pray before class again! Thank goodness that B- was willing to pray because for some crazy reason I am really, really nervous. I think that is because I made some comments last week that I should not have. I have really been praying that God will show me how to speak better words, words of life. And thank you, Jesus. M- had lost her file, and I prayed, and then she found it. Thank you, thank you, thank you. There is nothing like an immediate answer to a prayer. Waiting is difficult.

I am also going to do the difficult task of telling my [first college] boss that I will be unavailable to teach there next semester. I already talked to L-, and she affirmed that she wants me here, but to make it clear to [first college] that I will not be back is really walking by faith. I have come so far since last March. That is only 10 months. Thanks to my students I have restarted my Bible study, started praying more often, and really tried to get ahold of my foul language, but God, I need you in order to do that last one.

I am so incredibly excited to be teaching. YAY! I sure hope that everything that I say makes sense. I keep pausing to see if anyone has questions, but they don’t. That worries me. I don’t know if they are just saying that they understand (which I hope is true) just to be nice or if they really do understand. Please, God, may all of this composition work be comprehensible to everyone in here, even me.